Abi's tip toe walking

For as long as she has been walking, Abi has always walked on her tiptoes. We'd get comments on it on how she should be in ballet because she's so natural and how she's so cute and such. But now at age five, I'm starting to worry about her legs. She has strong calves and that's great, but what about the muscles in the front? We try to get after her to walk flat footed, but she'll only do it for a few steps, then she's back up on her toes! *grr*

I did a search on it, and found nothing that seems to be "her". She doesn't have any diseases or chromosone disorders or whatever. All I can figure is that it is "Idiopathic Tiptoe walking", which just means it's a habit!

I had a doctor's apointment for myself on Friday and was going to ask for a referral to a pediatrician for Abi's feet. (Apparently I'm supposed to book a separate apt for stuff re: them too! *blush* –my old dr let me ask those things, oops, my bad) She did look at Abi though, checked out her legs and knees and played with her ankles. Said that her legs look good, only a bit knock-kneed, but that's normal until about age 7 or something. Her muscles also look good, so we don't need to be too concerned, which was good to hear. She was going to refer us to an orthopedic surgeon, (eek) but then decided to just recommend we try physical therapy first. (which medical likely won't cover, but if it's necessary, I'll pay for it) If things aren't helped, then she can recommend us further, but I don't think we'll need to go that drastic.

At least I'm one step closer. I'll be doing some calls I guess…

Kai's speech therapy update

Well, this is the second month in a row that Kai didn't want to participate! He slouched in his seat and refused to even attempt to say anything, just pouted b/c the therapist wouldn't give in until he tried something! It was tiring. Well, that's only partly accurate: he DID point his finger down–that's what she was trying to get him to say, but he'd say "eep" (sounding like UP to me) Then he didn't want to play anymore. Not too sure what his problem is, but at least he didn't scream this month!


Last month, the ST said she still couldn't rule out Apraxia but I've noticed that he's picked up the word "more" (or MO as he says it) and the sign for it, but won't say JU (or juice) and the sign anymore. I don't know if that means anything or not though.


So next month, the ST is coming to our house and she's going to bring pictures for us for our fridge. (well, we'll have to get magnetic sheets from Michaels first) That way if he won't use words or signs, he can just point to the picture. I'm okay with that, but can't help but feel disappointed, like we're stepping back. But maybe he's just feeling overwhelmed that we're doing Too Much for him. It's hard. I just wish I knew WHY he's having trouble.


Meanwhile, this month, I was supposed to work on him to say "T", but just could not. He refused. Even in play. He'd get upset if I"D say it.. Tuh tuh tuh tuh…. He's been acting INCREDIBLY aggressive too lately and I don't get it. All he wants to do is hit me or be rough. He's hurt me many times just being too aggressive. I don't know if that means anything, but it's frustrating. While I'm trying to talk to the ST, he's scratching my arms or trying to headbutt me or jumping on my back and choking me! What is UP with my boy???????


*sigh* That's my update!!!!

feeling anti-social

Not too sure what my problem is. I'm having such a hard time responding to emails and writing and just sitting down and chatting with people. My blog has to be updated big time, I'm hardly responding to many posts on MWP. WHAT is going on???

I wish I knew. *pout*

I had a funny experience happen at Kai's speech therapy a few weeks back. There is a mother with a 2 year old boy, Kalob (yes, that's how it's spelled) and he does not like to participate in anything, just wants to sit in her lap, so it's not much fun for her. I told her after one of the classes that Kai was the EXACT same way last year. (so was Abi, actually) But he outgrew it. It's tough, but it won't always be that way. I wanted to encourage her. Well, then she wanted to give me her phone number so that when Kalob has his 3rd birthday we can come. Isn't that nice? …if his birthday weren't in SEPTEMBER!!!! LOL To be honest, my thoughts were, 'uhm, thanks lady, but I don't really intend to know anyone from this class in September! I'm not really here to make friends!"

Wow. Does that make me sound like a b**ch or what??? It does, doesn't it? But it's true for me. I'm NOT there to make friends. I'm only mildly interested in these people. There is one woman who holds my interest the most but that's b/c she has twin girls (one with spirally curls and one with pin-straight hair, fascinating!!!) and she reminds me of my friend with twin boys the same age. *wink*

I started taking Ciprelex again. It's been over two weeks and I'm feeling a bit better I guess. I seem to have some happiness and energy to play with the kids; that's good. But I've been feeling so…. I don't even know. Frustrated. Concerned. Sad. Two weeks ago, someone in our church lost her baby in a late miscarriage at 12w. A friend's 3 year old died this week. Another friend may lose her baby at 21w. It's been hard.

I wonder if I should be able to handle this better. AM I anti-social? Or am I dealing with some depression? Is this Normal? It just feels as though things are piling up, that's all. grr.

happy keester!

sorry, couldn't resist! *wink*

updates

Well, I got my MRI results in the mail on Friday, which surprised me. I didn't know they would mail them out! I saw my rheumatologist yesterday (Wed) as well for results, which he just confirmed for me. I have no signs of Anklyosing Spondylitis. Hmm… So after two years of thinking this is what I had, we can close the book on it! It's bittersweet, to be honest. I don't want it, I'm glad I don't have it, but it's strange to NOT have it. If that makes sense.


So what is it??? That's the frustrating part. We need to start looking again. The dr did say that we just may never find an answer but find that the pain can be controlled with back exercise. I can deal with that, I guess. The MRI letter did suggest that there was a "possibility of a fairly long syrinx" Of course, I HAD to look that up b/c I had no idea what it was! It's another word for a cyst, and from what I looked up, it's pretty painful! One site went as far as saying "severe disability"! Eek! So I was feeling a bit worried about that. My husband told me to stop looking up things! LOL Well, the dr didn't even bring it up! So I did! He basically told me not to even think about that, there was nothing to worry about, I didn't have the symptoms! Phew!!! That was a relief! He also said that my back wouldn't be sore from disjointed hips or pelvis from childbirth, and said he's never seen a case where that actually happens!


Back to the drawing board. I have another X-Ray next week sometime (when I can fit it in) and we'll see if that shows anything. I'm not expecting it will though, but maybe I'll be pleasantly surprised.


Other good news is that my thyroid has gotten better… or that is, my prescription has gone down for my meds, so that's a good thing. I was told it can fluctuate every few months though, too, so maybe this isn't something to cheer about, but I thought it was! This is the first time it's gone DOWN since I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism in 2005!!!


Also, my eyes have gotten better and my prescription for glasses has gone down. Yay! The optometrist said that my contacts have been "good" to my eyes. Typically they aren't! So that's nice to hear. He checked the kids too and they're eyes are perfect, which is a relief. Even Bryn's eyes are good, and he's farsighted like he should be! :)


So other than everyone has colds/flus, we're doing well! It's always good having good news going into Easter, isn't it? I hope that everyone has a wonderful weekend, and that the power of the weekend is real to you, and may you feel blessed.

{{{hugs}}} to you!