Wednesday, January 2, 2008
Oh Joy! You'd think I'd be better prepared for Winter seeing as every year we're all sick and I'm usually the one hit worse. (roll eyes) I meant to get the Flu Shot too! Oops. I wonder if it's too late? But this cold or flu or whatever it is has been lingering around since the week before Christmas!!! Abi missed her last week of school because of it (well, all except the Tues). It just doesn't want to go away! I can't wait for warmer weather so we can open up the house and clean and get well! I'm ready for Spring!!!
Wait a minute…. did I say "Morning Sickness"???
*big innocent grin*
Yes, I did! On Christmas Eve, I went in for an ultrasound to confirm what I'd already known since sometime Novemeber: we are expecting our Fourth Child!!! And I couldn't be more excited!!! …well, I could, if I weren't so darn ILL!!!! Ugh!!! At least I haven't thrown up yet. But it sure SUCKS being nauseated All Day Long! :( That mixed with a cold… yuck!
We are just in our 11th week…or is it 11 weeks along, and into our 12th week? Well, whatever. As far as I can count, our EDD is July 20th. But I'm sure I'll only go until June. Just a feeling, but maybe I"m being pessimistic!
I'm very proud of myself for keeping it a secret for so long too. We didn't tell any of our family until Christmas, although I did tell the kids' teachers (it's hard not to when you're feeling like you're going to puke and you're looking ill). It wasn't easy keeping it quiet. I wanted to tell some people Immediately! (especially after I found out that some friends are also due around the same time) But by keeping it just to ourselves, it gave Jonathan and I a chance to just have an "US Secret" and that was special. We we able to talk about it and share our excitement. It's nice having that with your husband. I tend to talk to my friends and family more quickly than him, as they're more assessable, and that's too bad.
Now, there was also another reason for keeping it to ourselves, and I'll be honest by saying it's because we have had some friends who have been negative about our wanting another child. Yes, yes, I've heard it many times that it's "our decision and no one else' business", yet the same people who tell me that also tell me that we should wait, it's best to not have more, it's all b/c they're concerned… blah blah blah. So if that's true, why do I have to feel so Wrong when we do have this blessing? Because this IS a blessing. As much as some people want to try to convince me it isn't, this was NOT a planned pregnancy. I don't have to explain myself to anyone, yet I feel I have to, and that hurts. No one can understand why I feel the way I do, I expect there to be many who think I'm crazy and wanton in my faith, but it's MY faith and what it means to me. I firmly believe that God has blessed me and I would not be pregnant if it wasn't in His plan. If you can't respect me in that belief, you are entitled to that, but you are also able to keep your own mouth shut.
*sigh* This has obviously been bothering me for some time! But to be honest, this excitement of a new baby has been marred a bit. We have been pleasantly surprised by some response of support and excitement, but sadly disappointed with the ones where we get the "are you crazy" etc response. Yes, as a matter of fact, we ARE crazy. If wanting a large family is crazy! Sheesh, it's not like we're on our 7th or something! We hardly qualify for those TLC shows on the dozen kids!!!!
But, putting all negativity aside, we are having a baby!!!! And both Jonathan & I are excited! I was actually surprised at how excited and supportive he was! But he's been great! I am blessed in so many ways!
Here is our newest addition so far:
The head is on the left, with it's bum on the right. I got to see the arms and legs kicking too. So fascinating! Yay for little babies!!! …now if only I could get over this sickness.
Wait a minute…. did I say "Morning Sickness"???
*big innocent grin*
Yes, I did! On Christmas Eve, I went in for an ultrasound to confirm what I'd already known since sometime Novemeber: we are expecting our Fourth Child!!! And I couldn't be more excited!!! …well, I could, if I weren't so darn ILL!!!! Ugh!!! At least I haven't thrown up yet. But it sure SUCKS being nauseated All Day Long! :( That mixed with a cold… yuck!
We are just in our 11th week…or is it 11 weeks along, and into our 12th week? Well, whatever. As far as I can count, our EDD is July 20th. But I'm sure I'll only go until June. Just a feeling, but maybe I"m being pessimistic!
I'm very proud of myself for keeping it a secret for so long too. We didn't tell any of our family until Christmas, although I did tell the kids' teachers (it's hard not to when you're feeling like you're going to puke and you're looking ill). It wasn't easy keeping it quiet. I wanted to tell some people Immediately! (especially after I found out that some friends are also due around the same time) But by keeping it just to ourselves, it gave Jonathan and I a chance to just have an "US Secret" and that was special. We we able to talk about it and share our excitement. It's nice having that with your husband. I tend to talk to my friends and family more quickly than him, as they're more assessable, and that's too bad.
Now, there was also another reason for keeping it to ourselves, and I'll be honest by saying it's because we have had some friends who have been negative about our wanting another child. Yes, yes, I've heard it many times that it's "our decision and no one else' business", yet the same people who tell me that also tell me that we should wait, it's best to not have more, it's all b/c they're concerned… blah blah blah. So if that's true, why do I have to feel so Wrong when we do have this blessing? Because this IS a blessing. As much as some people want to try to convince me it isn't, this was NOT a planned pregnancy. I don't have to explain myself to anyone, yet I feel I have to, and that hurts. No one can understand why I feel the way I do, I expect there to be many who think I'm crazy and wanton in my faith, but it's MY faith and what it means to me. I firmly believe that God has blessed me and I would not be pregnant if it wasn't in His plan. If you can't respect me in that belief, you are entitled to that, but you are also able to keep your own mouth shut.
*sigh* This has obviously been bothering me for some time! But to be honest, this excitement of a new baby has been marred a bit. We have been pleasantly surprised by some response of support and excitement, but sadly disappointed with the ones where we get the "are you crazy" etc response. Yes, as a matter of fact, we ARE crazy. If wanting a large family is crazy! Sheesh, it's not like we're on our 7th or something! We hardly qualify for those TLC shows on the dozen kids!!!!
But, putting all negativity aside, we are having a baby!!!! And both Jonathan & I are excited! I was actually surprised at how excited and supportive he was! But he's been great! I am blessed in so many ways!
Here is our newest addition so far:
The head is on the left, with it's bum on the right. I got to see the arms and legs kicking too. So fascinating! Yay for little babies!!! …now if only I could get over this sickness.
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