Saturday, August 11, 2007
I got this email from my SIL Jenn last month and meant to share it with you, so I am doing that now. It is just parts of a conversation Abi had with her Auntie and Uncle… too cute!
"K, I have to wonder when Abi became teenager??? I know I went through this stage but I don’t think it was until I was 12 or so. In the car she was going on…
“You should go in our new van, cause, like, it’s super big”
“Mom’s new van can seat, like, 8 people, that’s like enough if we had like 3 more babies”
“you know if we like had 3 more babies we would like need a bigger house but not a bigger van cause it could like hold like 8 babies”…….
Like you know! James and I were both chuckling to ourselves thinking back to the late 80’s.
So like have yourself like a totally awesome night dude!"
LMBO!!!! I don't know where Abi got her newly acquired speech, but I've noticed it too. No more Polly Pocket movies for her!!!! lol She's such a Valley Girl…and she's only FIVE!!!!! Eek!!!! *big cheesy grin*
"K, I have to wonder when Abi became teenager??? I know I went through this stage but I don’t think it was until I was 12 or so. In the car she was going on…
“You should go in our new van, cause, like, it’s super big”
“Mom’s new van can seat, like, 8 people, that’s like enough if we had like 3 more babies”
“you know if we like had 3 more babies we would like need a bigger house but not a bigger van cause it could like hold like 8 babies”…….
Like you know! James and I were both chuckling to ourselves thinking back to the late 80’s.
So like have yourself like a totally awesome night dude!"
LMBO!!!! I don't know where Abi got her newly acquired speech, but I've noticed it too. No more Polly Pocket movies for her!!!! lol She's such a Valley Girl…and she's only FIVE!!!!! Eek!!!! *big cheesy grin*
Friday, August 10, 2007
Without giving away TMI (too much information), my Hunny basically let me know what awaited me tonight after the kids went to sleep. Needless to say, I was intrigued. So when he popped into the bathrom, I snuck in after him for a make-out session straight out of some teen movie! *blush*teehee* I've never done that before, so I was full of giggles!
We were only in there for 5 minutes at most when I hear the most angelic voice of my boy at the door saying, "Hi, Dad!" followed by a giggle. Which made Me giggle! Then snort! Then I heard Kai giggle and say, "Hi, Mom!" That was IT for me. Full out laughs. The "moment" was over! I got out of the bathroom, saying hello to Kai, and let my husband go back to his original plan.
*sigh*
So much for being Silly Teenagers! But what a fun moment! Good thing Kai isn't old enough to understand the reason Mommy and Daddy were in the bathroom together!!!! LMBO!!! It's good to be silly again! *wink*
We were only in there for 5 minutes at most when I hear the most angelic voice of my boy at the door saying, "Hi, Dad!" followed by a giggle. Which made Me giggle! Then snort! Then I heard Kai giggle and say, "Hi, Mom!" That was IT for me. Full out laughs. The "moment" was over! I got out of the bathroom, saying hello to Kai, and let my husband go back to his original plan.
*sigh*
So much for being Silly Teenagers! But what a fun moment! Good thing Kai isn't old enough to understand the reason Mommy and Daddy were in the bathroom together!!!! LMBO!!! It's good to be silly again! *wink*
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Kai had his last speech therapy for the summer today. And after our first horrendous appointment to our last one 6 weeks later, I can say that Kai is doing much better! He participated well and tryied to sign more and even tried to say things. I was so proud of him! He played games with Linda and even gave her a hug when we left. It turned out better than I was expecting, and I am so happy and relieved.
I remembered to ask about the benefits Linda had mentioned last month, and she photocopied forms for me and filled out her portions. This is the "Child Disability Benefit" through the Canadian government and is a tax-free benefit "up to $137.75 per month ($1,653 per year) for low-and-modest-income families who are for a child under age 18 with a severe and prolonged mental or physical impairment." I don't know if we will qualify for it or not, but it's worth a shot. The nice thing about this is that it will be retroactive all the way to birth, too! Woot!!!
Linda wrote under the Examples of effects of impairment as this: "unable to get basic needs met as can not express himself; saftely as a concern as can not express what's happened, give information, as well as does not always follow directions. Highly unintelligible verbally–uses some augmentive." As for Diagnosis, she wrote: "Childhood Apraxia of Speech/Phonological Disorder/Expressive Language Disorder".
She went over it with me and I agree with all she wrote, but she wanted me to understand that while she does not completely think of it as a "disorder" as much of a "delay", but the term sounds better! She did use the term "Apraxia" again today at the end of our session (before I asked about the forms), which makes me wonder if it's Official or if it Still "can't be ruled out". She said she was going to try more of the things she learned at the Apraxia conference on Kai starting in September when we see her again, but did mention how it's a bit hard as he's younger than the age she's studied.
I'm feeling good about this and not at all sorrowful. I'm taking it one step at a time. We'll know more when we see Linda again in September.
I remembered to ask about the benefits Linda had mentioned last month, and she photocopied forms for me and filled out her portions. This is the "Child Disability Benefit" through the Canadian government and is a tax-free benefit "up to $137.75 per month ($1,653 per year) for low-and-modest-income families who are for a child under age 18 with a severe and prolonged mental or physical impairment." I don't know if we will qualify for it or not, but it's worth a shot. The nice thing about this is that it will be retroactive all the way to birth, too! Woot!!!
Linda wrote under the Examples of effects of impairment as this: "unable to get basic needs met as can not express himself; saftely as a concern as can not express what's happened, give information, as well as does not always follow directions. Highly unintelligible verbally–uses some augmentive." As for Diagnosis, she wrote: "Childhood Apraxia of Speech/Phonological Disorder/Expressive Language Disorder".
She went over it with me and I agree with all she wrote, but she wanted me to understand that while she does not completely think of it as a "disorder" as much of a "delay", but the term sounds better! She did use the term "Apraxia" again today at the end of our session (before I asked about the forms), which makes me wonder if it's Official or if it Still "can't be ruled out". She said she was going to try more of the things she learned at the Apraxia conference on Kai starting in September when we see her again, but did mention how it's a bit hard as he's younger than the age she's studied.
I'm feeling good about this and not at all sorrowful. I'm taking it one step at a time. We'll know more when we see Linda again in September.
Saturday, July 21, 2007
The other day we got a letter addressed to Kai, which was a bit strange. There was no postmark address on it and was in a manilla envelope. Very curious. Now, I know that opening up someone else's mail is an offense that could land me in jail, but I felt that I would be allowed to open up my 3-year old son's surprise mail. In it was a certificate saying that he had won Honorable Mention in a colouring contest that Blockbuster held a while back, and a $5 gift card to the store! THAT was a surprise!
Months ago, I can't even remember when, Auntie Jenn brought up some pictures of Shrek for the kids to colour so she could enter them into a colouring contest. We all soon forgot about it. Now I'm wishing I had taken a photo of their finished pictures b/c I'm sure that Kai only used one colour and didn't even have a method, just scribbled over the whole sheet!!! In fact, Jenn was telling me that she sent in the picture with a note saying she knew Kai was too young to enter the contest but she couldn't NOT include his with his sister's!!!! LOL So he wasn't even supposed to be IN the contest!!! Too cute!
Honorable Mention! Way to go, buddy!
Months ago, I can't even remember when, Auntie Jenn brought up some pictures of Shrek for the kids to colour so she could enter them into a colouring contest. We all soon forgot about it. Now I'm wishing I had taken a photo of their finished pictures b/c I'm sure that Kai only used one colour and didn't even have a method, just scribbled over the whole sheet!!! In fact, Jenn was telling me that she sent in the picture with a note saying she knew Kai was too young to enter the contest but she couldn't NOT include his with his sister's!!!! LOL So he wasn't even supposed to be IN the contest!!! Too cute!
Honorable Mention! Way to go, buddy!
Monday, July 16, 2007
My life feels all confused. I can't think straight. I can't focus. I can't commit. I feel so far removed from everything and everyone I used to be close to. MWP. Laura & Heather, my two best friends who live long distance, they hardly email now and when they do I just don't have the energy to respond. I just don't know what to say. My life feels too confused and screwed up, and there isn't anything that's going on!!!! I feel so BLAH and there is NO REASON for it!!!! My mind can't even focus enough to write, so I end up sitting in front of paper staring at it (or a screen) not knowing how to put words together to form a good topic or sentance. What is going on with my life?????
I went to my doctor today for my test results. When I came in she said, "oh right, we called you in!" So I told her, "no, I made this appointment." "oh." pause. She's a bit confused. "So what can I do for you?" I pause, a bit confused. "I was wondering about my test results." OH!!! (curious that she thought they had called me in….)
My results came back negative for diabetes, which is what I was expecting since I didn't hear from them. But what did come back out of whack was my thyroid!!!! (roll eyes) Go figure! Now I'm too low for my meds!!!!! So she took the next 20ms trying to figure everything out, it was rather strange. I was at 88 then she moved me down to 75 and so she was trying to find something between them, but it doesn't divide that way, and she wanted to know how long I was on 75 (this was just after she had just told me she started me at that dose in May) and why did she change me off of 85 and…. I was starting to wonder about the doctor, to be honest!!!! She finally decided to just put me back up to the 85 for now! LOL
Also…. I am anemic!!! WT??? After all these years! LOL They must check me for anemia like every 6 months b/c I am always that tired, but I've always been negative for it, despite my desire for an answer and excuse for exhaustion. This time it turns out I am! I also have Low B12. Hmm…. I'm only "borderline", so I can take pills instead of injections…thank God, could you imagine me giving myself shots??? It was hard enough for me to prick my fingers daily when I had gestational diabetes!!!!! LOL The doctor kept asking me if I ate meat and vegetables. It was funny, she'd ask me and I'd tell her that I did, in fact we've had so much bbq steak lately in this weather that I'm getting sick of meat!!!! LOL But not even 10 minutes later and she'd ask me again! (roll eyes) Me thinks the doctor had a preoccupied mind today! :) She also asked me twice if my periods were heavy or if I had diahreah. Both no. But I did remind her that she wanted to do a pregnancy test on me! …. No response. Phooey. I didn't get to pee in a cup for her! I guess me having low iron and B12 was enough of an answer for her that she can rule out pregnancy! And I was actually looking forwards to finding out the results today too!!! LOL *sigh* Oh well, I guess I'll have to wait to see if the ol' Aunt Flo comes this week. (*blush* was that Too Much Information or was it just me????)
So yeah. My thyroid is too low, as well as my iron levels and B12 levels. What's up with that? I feel like my body is just all screwed up. I mean, this doesn't make sense. I guess in some ways I should be praising God that we have some sort of answer and that it wasn't just a "oh well, it must've been a fluke thing for your tiredness and reactions. your results are normal." but I'm feeling crappy and confused. I eat meat. I eat veggies. (love them raw) Maybe it was just a Bad Day. I mean, can that happen? When your blood is tested, is it possible that the results were from that day or the day before? Like if you ate a bunch of sugary stuff prior would it skewer the results? If I hadn't been eating enough of those things prior, like the week, could that be it? I'm pulling at straws, aren't I? I don't know why, it's not like I want to take Away this answer and have nothing! But…. for some reason I'm feeling So Down about this. I spent this evening feeling Blah. Poor Jono kept asking me, "are you okay?" I was getting annoyed!! "Yes! I'm fine! Leave me alone! I feel empty, lonely, confused, sad, tired, screwed up, drained, emotional and I don't know why, ok???"
*sigh*
I'm rambling. Sorry. And it's depressive. Sorry. But I'm just letting it out and trying to make sense of things and how I feel. I'm actually likely doing much better than this post makes it sound. Really. But I had to update on my doctor's apt b/c I knew my mom would be checking it up!
I pick up my meds tomorrow and I'll start taking them asap. Both Jenny (my awesome neighbour) and the doctor used the same description for me: once you're on these, you'll feel ALIVE again!!!
Alive, eh? Hmm…. that's interesting. I've felt so UN-alive for so long that I'm not too sure what that means. I'll be always happy that I won't need my antidepressants? I'll have energy to play with my kids and not need naps in the day? I'll be creative and start thinking up new ideas? I'll desire to be in contact with friends again? What does it mean to be ALIVE???
I went to my doctor today for my test results. When I came in she said, "oh right, we called you in!" So I told her, "no, I made this appointment." "oh." pause. She's a bit confused. "So what can I do for you?" I pause, a bit confused. "I was wondering about my test results." OH!!! (curious that she thought they had called me in….)
My results came back negative for diabetes, which is what I was expecting since I didn't hear from them. But what did come back out of whack was my thyroid!!!! (roll eyes) Go figure! Now I'm too low for my meds!!!!! So she took the next 20ms trying to figure everything out, it was rather strange. I was at 88 then she moved me down to 75 and so she was trying to find something between them, but it doesn't divide that way, and she wanted to know how long I was on 75 (this was just after she had just told me she started me at that dose in May) and why did she change me off of 85 and…. I was starting to wonder about the doctor, to be honest!!!! She finally decided to just put me back up to the 85 for now! LOL
Also…. I am anemic!!! WT??? After all these years! LOL They must check me for anemia like every 6 months b/c I am always that tired, but I've always been negative for it, despite my desire for an answer and excuse for exhaustion. This time it turns out I am! I also have Low B12. Hmm…. I'm only "borderline", so I can take pills instead of injections…thank God, could you imagine me giving myself shots??? It was hard enough for me to prick my fingers daily when I had gestational diabetes!!!!! LOL The doctor kept asking me if I ate meat and vegetables. It was funny, she'd ask me and I'd tell her that I did, in fact we've had so much bbq steak lately in this weather that I'm getting sick of meat!!!! LOL But not even 10 minutes later and she'd ask me again! (roll eyes) Me thinks the doctor had a preoccupied mind today! :) She also asked me twice if my periods were heavy or if I had diahreah. Both no. But I did remind her that she wanted to do a pregnancy test on me! …. No response. Phooey. I didn't get to pee in a cup for her! I guess me having low iron and B12 was enough of an answer for her that she can rule out pregnancy! And I was actually looking forwards to finding out the results today too!!! LOL *sigh* Oh well, I guess I'll have to wait to see if the ol' Aunt Flo comes this week. (*blush* was that Too Much Information or was it just me????)
So yeah. My thyroid is too low, as well as my iron levels and B12 levels. What's up with that? I feel like my body is just all screwed up. I mean, this doesn't make sense. I guess in some ways I should be praising God that we have some sort of answer and that it wasn't just a "oh well, it must've been a fluke thing for your tiredness and reactions. your results are normal." but I'm feeling crappy and confused. I eat meat. I eat veggies. (love them raw) Maybe it was just a Bad Day. I mean, can that happen? When your blood is tested, is it possible that the results were from that day or the day before? Like if you ate a bunch of sugary stuff prior would it skewer the results? If I hadn't been eating enough of those things prior, like the week, could that be it? I'm pulling at straws, aren't I? I don't know why, it's not like I want to take Away this answer and have nothing! But…. for some reason I'm feeling So Down about this. I spent this evening feeling Blah. Poor Jono kept asking me, "are you okay?" I was getting annoyed!! "Yes! I'm fine! Leave me alone! I feel empty, lonely, confused, sad, tired, screwed up, drained, emotional and I don't know why, ok???"
*sigh*
I'm rambling. Sorry. And it's depressive. Sorry. But I'm just letting it out and trying to make sense of things and how I feel. I'm actually likely doing much better than this post makes it sound. Really. But I had to update on my doctor's apt b/c I knew my mom would be checking it up!
I pick up my meds tomorrow and I'll start taking them asap. Both Jenny (my awesome neighbour) and the doctor used the same description for me: once you're on these, you'll feel ALIVE again!!!
Alive, eh? Hmm…. that's interesting. I've felt so UN-alive for so long that I'm not too sure what that means. I'll be always happy that I won't need my antidepressants? I'll have energy to play with my kids and not need naps in the day? I'll be creative and start thinking up new ideas? I'll desire to be in contact with friends again? What does it mean to be ALIVE???
Monday, July 9, 2007
Last week, Kai actually responded to the Speech Therapist!!! YAY!!! I was soooooo happy and all day kept praising him! I wanted him to realize and understand that was what we wanted from him. Before the appointment, I kept telling him how he needed to say something or sign or do something for Linda so she knew how big and smart he was, and when we got there, before getting out of the truck I turned to Kai and repeated that he needed to respond to her, and would he do that for Mommy? Of course, he says yes! He was happy to be there and played good with the toys in the waiting room and was doing well…. until Linda arrived. Then he hide beside my leg and got a pouty lip and eyes downcast. :( Oh no!
We went to the room, where he sat at the table not looking at her. But she was prepared. She had a box of toys on the table and pictures in front of him. He just needed to point to which one he wanted to play with! At first he didn't want to until I gently said, "what did we talk about in the car?" and he pointed!!! :) And as they played, he gradually got more comfortable and pointed and even started to speak! It was so wonderful! I was wondering if we'd ever get to that stage with Linda! My heart was overjoyed!
Kai's interest didn't last long though, but he did play with all the games and did respond, so all was good. Linda said she still can't rule out apraxia but she says that it seems to be more of a delay in phonetics. He has words that he uses for certain things that HE thinks are correct and it's just about learning that those aren't the correct ones and having to replace them with OUR words. It'll take some time.
Kai is growing in leaps and bounds! I am so impressed and pleased. Jonathan & I praise him whenever he uses words and tries but what is really helping him is playing with other children his age. He's gained so much with just playing with Max & Teague next door and last weekend with Brody, which is so great to know. I can't wait to see how he does at preschool this year!
We'll see how this week goes with ST.
We went to the room, where he sat at the table not looking at her. But she was prepared. She had a box of toys on the table and pictures in front of him. He just needed to point to which one he wanted to play with! At first he didn't want to until I gently said, "what did we talk about in the car?" and he pointed!!! :) And as they played, he gradually got more comfortable and pointed and even started to speak! It was so wonderful! I was wondering if we'd ever get to that stage with Linda! My heart was overjoyed!
Kai's interest didn't last long though, but he did play with all the games and did respond, so all was good. Linda said she still can't rule out apraxia but she says that it seems to be more of a delay in phonetics. He has words that he uses for certain things that HE thinks are correct and it's just about learning that those aren't the correct ones and having to replace them with OUR words. It'll take some time.
Kai is growing in leaps and bounds! I am so impressed and pleased. Jonathan & I praise him whenever he uses words and tries but what is really helping him is playing with other children his age. He's gained so much with just playing with Max & Teague next door and last weekend with Brody, which is so great to know. I can't wait to see how he does at preschool this year!
We'll see how this week goes with ST.
I had another "diabetic reaction" this morning at noon. I almost caught it time though, but still felt weak and shakey in my arms and legs, but I was feeling well within the hour. I checked my blood sugar level and they were at 4.0 That sounded a bit low to me, and my mom confirmed too, so I wasn't feeling well about it all. Maybe I do have diabetes.
When I mentioned it to my doctor, the levels and my reactions and such, she said the levels were Normal and that it sounded okay. She went as far as saying that she didn't think that this "reaction" was from diabetes! WTH? Really? Hmmm… then what is it? Not that I Want to have diabetes, but I'd like to have some clue!!! She is sending me for a blood test though, and she will test ….this is the list: B12, Ferritin, Glucose Fasting, Folate Serum/RBC, Urea, TSH (for my thyroid levels…something I was supposed to do 3 weeks ago, *blush*) Creatinine, Electrolytes and a Complete Blood Count. Hmm.. not too sure what half of that means, but she mentioned checking my thyroid, diabetes, and for anemia.
She actually thinks it may be my thryoid. Possible. She also is wondering if I'm pregnant!!!! *enter shocked face here* Excuse me? I don't think so!!! I had my regular cycle last month, and I'm due again next week. When I see her next week for the results, if it hasn't come she will test me, which is strange since it's not due till a few days after, but okay! It's a free pee test, whatever!
Poor Jonathan looked dumbfounded when I told him what the doctor suggested! I think it scared him just a wee bit!!! HAHAHA! poor guy! Well, I don't "feel" pregnant, so if it comes out positive he won't be the only one shocked! LOL I was just surprised that she dismissed diabetes. But we'll have to see how this test turns out. I'm going first thing in the morning. (read: when I get my butt into gear, lol)
When I mentioned it to my doctor, the levels and my reactions and such, she said the levels were Normal and that it sounded okay. She went as far as saying that she didn't think that this "reaction" was from diabetes! WTH? Really? Hmmm… then what is it? Not that I Want to have diabetes, but I'd like to have some clue!!! She is sending me for a blood test though, and she will test ….this is the list: B12, Ferritin, Glucose Fasting, Folate Serum/RBC, Urea, TSH (for my thyroid levels…something I was supposed to do 3 weeks ago, *blush*) Creatinine, Electrolytes and a Complete Blood Count. Hmm.. not too sure what half of that means, but she mentioned checking my thyroid, diabetes, and for anemia.
She actually thinks it may be my thryoid. Possible. She also is wondering if I'm pregnant!!!! *enter shocked face here* Excuse me? I don't think so!!! I had my regular cycle last month, and I'm due again next week. When I see her next week for the results, if it hasn't come she will test me, which is strange since it's not due till a few days after, but okay! It's a free pee test, whatever!
Poor Jonathan looked dumbfounded when I told him what the doctor suggested! I think it scared him just a wee bit!!! HAHAHA! poor guy! Well, I don't "feel" pregnant, so if it comes out positive he won't be the only one shocked! LOL I was just surprised that she dismissed diabetes. But we'll have to see how this test turns out. I'm going first thing in the morning. (read: when I get my butt into gear, lol)
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